I wish I wish I wish….
I wish the timing would have been better.
An opportunity has arisen in front of me. It would be perfect for me. I am the right person for this opportunity and I would find it challenging, rewarding and exciting. But the timing is against me… I have finally settled down in Denmark with a nice and well paid job. I am enjoying life with my friends and I have the perfect accommodation with one of my absolute best friends. This is the good life.
In half a year or a year I would be ready for a new adventure… I would be without job, I would have saved money for the adventure and I would have had plenty of time to enjoy life in Denmark to reach the point where I got so bored with it that I would seriously want a new adventure…
I wish the timing would be better.
But most of all I wish I dared….
Even if the timing had been better, would I have taken this opportunity? I would have been scared of the commitment, the challenges which would be greater than any previous challenge I have faced. It would be for a year and the context which I know but which is still so strange to me would challenge me immensely! But it is also an opportunity that lies so close to my heart. It represent exactly the challenges that all my ambitions and dreams involve… saying goodbye to the comfortable life in Denmark, saying goodbye to my family and friends here to go out in the world and do what I dream to do. It involves a rollercoaster lifestyle, situations where I have no idea what to do except that I know I have to do something… It involves trusting people who I have no idea if I can trust because I need them and can’t do anything without them. It involves failure and disappointments over the things I didn’t do, I didn’t achieve or didn’t do good enough…
Still I wish I dared… and I wish I could convince myself that timing is irrelevant when an opportunity that one just has to pursue arise….
Most people would think I am crazy if I pursue this opportunity… if I gave up what I have now in order to do so…. But at the same time I think most of the people would not be surprised that I consider it… however, I know that it would have to be myself who take such decision, my own dream which should make me overcome my fear, my trust in my dream and myself…
Oh I wish I dared…. I wish I dared dream for real!!!!